so yar... yesterday....

party was suppose to start at 12... so mom and i woke up early at around 7 and headed to the market to get fresh goods to cook for the day... then, something bad happened... the stall selling curry powder was closed for the day... -_- OMFG. no choice, i had to run further now... had to go to my jiu mu hse and get her to cook the curry for us... well after all, she is the grandmaster.
so immediately, i took the curry spices, the chicken wings, rushed home, grabbed the potatoes and took the bus to bedok to have the curry made... then, calamity struck again... there wasnt enough coconut=(... SO i had to rush to the market and brought some... then i rushed back home carrying the freaking large pot of curry... not to mention hot....

so the first grp of ppl who came were my bro friends and i must say... they are nice ppl... cause one of the guy there whom i also happen to know... brought 60 nuggets from mac to our hse... my mom and i were like going omg.... too much food already...

then the second grp were my air guys.... tk G pon justin....haha same like last year man... great times.

then i went out to fetch my jc grp of friends...haha must thank miao ying for helping me organize them...haha didnt expect so much response from them... especially the girls lol... hah wear high heel still shorter then me =)... wa but all dress until very nice arh, like going shopping like that lol... next time no nid dress until so formal one... anyhow can ler
so ya... my hse was like packed with 30++ ppl =) YEAH. so many ppl so fun =).. but arh, it became a mini gambling den LOL... but it was a very fun day... had to force ppl to eat - -; then also reminded them to get their ang bao... haha lol...
but i was quite happy with those who turned up... haha didnt expect some ppl to come... but they did =) yeah thx for coming... cause thought that some ppl were unhappy with me LOL
oh ya... majong was damn fun yesterday... i should organize more majong gathering sessions =)
arh but... they played until 1030++ last night - -.... very tired...

hiax... but of all the fun and excitement... i keep on feeling like i neglected some ppl during the whole event ... keep on having that feeling that they were being left out... and that i should have done something bout it... keep on feeling that there was just something that wasnt right...
it feels like i was at the wrong place...
it feels like i left you with a grp of stranger and it was too noisy for you to cry out
it feels like i forgot to attend to you and that you were forced to come...
it felt really odd
and yet, i only realized this after the end of everything...

but hiax... bottom line is...
the person i didnt want to come... didnt come =)
the person i wanted to see... didnt came =(
well since i wont say who... and donno whether they know themselves...
it is just a matter of time before i decide...
because
maybe we are just not fated
but i will still press on...
until i find... that we really cant be